Just some thoughts from today:

Today has been an emotional roller coaster! I learned some things today, though, that I want to get in writing before I forget. The biggest thing I learned today is that I want to live in a wide lens. Some people live life looking through a small, narrow looking glass. They might look through the money lens, or the music lens, or the family lens, or the church lens. The problem with this is that when you look through a narrow scope, your focus is also narrowed to that primary interest. If those around you happen to look at life through a different lens, tension and misunderstandings arise. I would love to be the kind of person who has a balanced life, one that accommodates all areas of life. A focus, or goal, is important in giving ones life direction, but I don't want to get to a place where I am stuck looking at life from one small goal or perspective. One of the aspects of today that really showed me this is the realization that my lens is currently not music. I don't, for whatever reason, view music as the most important aspect of life, from which everything else must come. Nor do I view money as the primary focus. Today I am happiest around my friends and family, living life without too much worry or anxiety. Today I want to get a job that will pay enough for me to live independently and I want to spend my time doing what I enjoy, whatever that may be.