Just some thoughts from today:

Today has been an emotional roller coaster! I learned some things today, though, that I want to get in writing before I forget. The biggest thing I learned today is that I want to live in a wide lens. Some people live life looking through a small, narrow looking glass. They might look through the money lens, or the music lens, or the family lens, or the church lens. The problem with this is that when you look through a narrow scope, your focus is also narrowed to that primary interest. If those around you happen to look at life through a different lens, tension and misunderstandings arise. I would love to be the kind of person who has a balanced life, one that accommodates all areas of life. A focus, or goal, is important in giving ones life direction, but I don't want to get to a place where I am stuck looking at life from one small goal or perspective. One of the aspects of today that really showed me this is the realization that my lens is currently not music. I don't, for whatever reason, view music as the most important aspect of life, from which everything else must come. Nor do I view money as the primary focus. Today I am happiest around my friends and family, living life without too much worry or anxiety. Today I want to get a job that will pay enough for me to live independently and I want to spend my time doing what I enjoy, whatever that may be.

New Shoes

I tend to not be too much of a shoe fanatic, but today my new black concert shoes came in the mail and I am so excited! They are black suede Clarks heels that I ordered on Zappos. I had store credit so I only had to pay $10 for them. I'm so excited to wear them out!! I think I might wear them on my first day of school!

"Planning without action is futile, action without planning is fatal "

This week I am happy to report that I have rediscovered my motivation to lose weight. I have been doing weight watchers for almost a year now (which is the longest I've ever stuck to any diet), but recently I have found myself in a slump; not really tracking or counting points. I was trusting that I knew ABOUT how many points I was eating. As you can imagine, that didn't work out too great.

So yesterday, I decided it was time to be more committed to the program and actually lose some weight! I dug out my old books and my pointplus calculator and set out to make a new plan! I printed out two recipes from WW.com and I planned a couple of snacks for the week. Then, after church, Daniel and I went to Walmart and bought everything I would need to make my meals and for my snacks.

After stocking up on food and a new set of tupperware, I went home and immediately started cooking.

By the end of the day I had enough food prepared and calculated for 5 lunches, 5 dinners, and 15 snacks, and leftovers for next week! Bring on the weigh in on saturday! :)